haunted ;
ah okay. i suspect im a guy. so random. ya gayed arnd wif wm n now brokeback. my back is hurting for no reason not the muscle ache kinda feelin. just super weird n painful on both sides.
abt the comment tt i overrate myself too much.. im still thinkin abt it. hasnt realli occurred to me recently leh. but i realli realli wanna improve. i wanna be better than i am now.
anw abt orientation..
admin day:
din manage to slp well the nite b4. haa. kinda like din slp at all. but still alright la. reached sch at 615 n started to get quite high. welcomed campers at the walkway outside the sch. coool. we did the huan ying huan ying, re lie huan ying thing. think we realli surprised them. n it was nice to see some of them smiling a bit already.
the talks in the hall were boring. but i thought the councillors' walk in was realli cool. haha. hmm cheering.. ok la expected ma. was still feeling high for the whole morning anw. lunch was quite bad.. brought my og to sit in a circle at our family spot then let them go buy food. told them to come back n eat but some of them ate in the canteen o.O so like uh super separated la.
more admin stuff n talks aft tt. my camper ethan scared me. he kept wantin to leave early cos he got some stuff on. brought him to command centre at 2 plus. uh ya he had to call his parents. turned out his parent told him not to leave. n he looked super super pissed aft tt. at 1st he alr got tt attitude n sian face.. den now like tt.. woh.
mass dance!! alrite la. dun realli like rock around the clock dance. learnt the sch song n jj spirit.. cheered n dunno did wad.. onli rmb tt the campers were dismissed at 6 plus o.O
had our own debrief.. n scdc attach stayed back to practise the dances till 8 25. woh. actualli managed to tahan tt.
went jp to return dvd.. fell down on the road outside sch. super suay la omg. my knee was bleedin n i was tryin v hard to endure. it was hurting like siao. at jp.. decided to be nicer to wm so i bought a herbal drink n many pretty jellies n went back to sch to pass it to someone else to pass it to him. cant rmb y i din feel like meeting him or talkin to him for the whole day.
i was feelin down for the whole nite i guess. was raining when i was abt to reach sch. the rain got super heavy tt i cldnt get home. thanks to juncheng for lendin me his umbrella. ya den i went out to flag a cab home. was on the phone wif wm aft tt. like woh i totalli din feel like talkin to him. so ya turned out v bad. n i was feelin super bad again aft tt. rarr. itz damn complicated. actualli itz just me. again. haii.
camp day 1:
packed my bag in the morning at 5 plus. super last min again. reached at 615.. hmm cant realli rmb wad happened other than cheering like siao in the concourse.
subject registration was alright. managed to talk to the campers quite a bit. wasnt there for icebreakers. was at lion dance room wif zhiming carrie n hweeting practising. we actualli wanted to use drums n cymbals for morning wake up calls.
lunch n og time was nice. waited n queued v long for the food.. summore it was all the way at the end behind lt5. og interaction was quite nice. played double wacko.. ji niu nai n other games. cool.
mass dance. was dancin on stage hoho. ok la i can get quite high usualli. but not used to smiling n smiling while dancing. but my back was facing them most of the time anw haha. yea.. cool la. first time n last time doin mass dance on stage. yayy scdc comm n scdc attach rocks!
afternoon games. i thought tt the preparation was realli awesome. wif the table structures all those. realli super lots of work la. realli respect the games comm n games attach ppl! hmm but personally i din think tt the games went v smoothly. cos like when we go to the games station.. the game masters will make us cheer like at least 3 or 4 cheers.. den too many ppl la v hard to organise the campers n make them listen to instructions. we ourselves couldnt hear much right from the back anw. but the game masters were alr trying v hard. then din get to play much den hafta change game.. some stations ah.. go there cheer n cheer.. den eh din even get to play at all. n the one abt hitting down the structures wif water bombs.. super messy la haha. many of them werent realli involved again. thought tt the spirit wasnt realli there. but i was realli realli glad tt there were still some of my campers who enjoyed the aftnn games.
bathing n stuff got even messier. pd block 4th floor toilets din even haf hose or pails. onli a realli short hose. the water supply summore can even run out 1 la.
nite games was damn fun hahaha. i was feeling super super high. n i was super touched n encouraged when my campers started cheering 'F6 F6!!' on their own as we were running. n og29 completed the game!! we got 2nd. hahaha yayy. all thanks to our game master la super nice hehhh. super happy tt all my campers enjoyed the nite games too.
song singing. haha yupp it was super nice too. din realli get to interact much wif campers though. haha anw bryan is damn funny la. he's realli so bryan. went around to thank the campers aft tt.. n was quite surprised n touched when 1 of my campers mau cheung told me tt i should smile more. haha super cute la i was walkin past him alr aft shaking his hand. den he wasnt lookin at me as he made tt comment. so i was like huh wondering if he was talkin to me. anw ya realli din expect tt. cos hes like the super quiet kind la.
mm managed to slp a bit la. slept from 2 plus to abt 5.
camp day 2:
din get to do the morning wake up call thing cos at the time tt they were supp to wake up.. everyone in the hall was awake alr n the lights were on. haha sian. morning pt was okay =)
mass dance!! haa. fun fun. was dancing on the platform. oh ya i din mention tt my dance partner is syafiq, our f6 family head! yay. did hey ya, she bangs n let's twist again. SHE BANGS SHE BANGS!! woh i got super high on tt. hahhaa. but b4 tt i was feelin v terrible cos i had to pee.. n the dance hey ya got a lot of jumping. so ya hahaha. gek like siao. anw i realli dun like the dance let's twist again. dunno y. hahaha. n i FELL off the platform when dancing tt dance la. ok ya the platform is realli small. but falling off it is realli super malu. the campers behind me who saw were super stunned la. kept askin if i was ok. but luckily i fell at a part when syafiq was holding my hands so ya it wasnt a bad fall.
telematch! haa fun. but i guess the campers were tired. so the spirts werent realli high. plus it was quite hot.
den during lunch. could realli feel tt the spirits were rather low. mm but still managed to interact with them. woh cheryl told me tt she prefers games more to mass dance cos she found mass dance difficult. too many dances.. not enough time to catch them n not enough practice. quite true la hmm. but itz still the spirit behind everything la yupp. haiya nvm i dunno wad im sayin.
anw i was feelin kinda down at tt time alr. cos durin telematch i was alr having a throbbing headache.. n was feelin a bit giddy. i wanted to go rest during kinetic warfare.. den juncheng called all the f6 ogls to talk aft lunch. he was sayin abt how low the spirits of our f6 campers were.. n tt we realli needed to bring it up for jj nite because kinetic warfare wld b the last activity b4 jj nite. n tt realli pushed me on.
haa went all out n cheered like crazy n encouraged them during kinetic warfare. i thought it realli rocked la. first few games they were alr enjoyin themselves a lot. ah but halfway i had to go off wif chinchye to settle the setting up of the moving lights n smoke machines in the hall. i cld go off alr to join my og but i saw tt scdc realli needed super lots of help.. so i stayed on to help! yay. helped a bit wif covering up the glass doors.. den helped michell wif the crepe paper stuff. haha ya we were chatting a lot as we were doing. cool la din noe y i was talkin so much. yupp it was realli nice talkin to her. n christina is super cool. she was just going on n on singing non stop as she was tying the helium balloons leh. all random songs. ya for like dunno how long she din even stop singing at all. helped wif the tables aft tt.. den slacked a bit n the rehearsal started quite soon aft.
woh it was like scary. dunno leh everything just felt super last min. actualli all the decor all those oso la. so ya some of them were actualli quite pissed when doin the decor. n then wah im just suay la. 1 of the moving lights died on me. so i was left wif 1. rarr. i was feelin quite pissed la. cos itz not the first time tt it screwed up.. but it was just such a wrong timing for the light to die on me. everything was just super messy. was feelin quite bad for wm alr cos he was super stressed. even though he was just sitting beside me there was nothing i cld do.
then the nite started. i just cldnt get high at all. not at all. yeah. the family performances all those oso super messy la. not well coordinated. but itz not one's fault. itz just tt we din haf time ba. but it can definitely be improved on. was quite touched to see f3 n f6's performance too. we din even plan for it la. but they still managed to come up wif sth. probably in like half an hr's time? yeah impressive. quite sad tt i din get to join them. the council dance. woh i felt super super super bad abt tt la. was usin david's psp to play the song. at 1st me n wm took some time to uh get it connected n get to the song.. den wm went up.. david was wondering y still nv play so he came down.. told him waitin for wm.. so orh ok he went up. so ok i played the song. den omgg realised wm turned the volume totalli down just now. so uh i was tryin to go restart the track aft i turned up the vol. den suay suay dunno y it went to the next song. n i din noe how to get back. summore i duno how to use psp.. n it was in the dark o.O so david had to come down to help. so uh ya. here, i apologise to all the councillors n everyone else. im sorry for screwing up the dance tt u guys spent ur nite choreographing n learning. im realli realli sorry.
so ya.. it was just super bad la. plus wm was feelin damn bad bcos of all the screw ups n stuff. hai. n blah blah even worse stuff. i wont elaborate. buay tahan got up n went to join my og when the ogls were told to go join our own ogs. bryan saw me cryin like siao when i was lookin for my og. he kept asking me wad happened. hes realli one of the very few who will persist in askin wad happened. yea v caring ba. thanks for the hug bryan. found my og finally. n sang the song unbreakble with them. went around to hug every single one of them. ya i was still cryin like siao la. n i was super super touched when they were comforting me as i hugged them. even those super noisy rara guys were also so caring. realli made me feel so so close to them. yeah felt a lot better aft tt alr.
itz like even though i was feelin quite bad durin jj nite.. i was thinkin tt my og shd b enjoying themselves.. n tt thought made me feel better alr. cos itz not abt me. itz abt them.. as long as they're happy.. then im happy. n i guess not being able to join my family performance.. not being able to play be there wif my og for jj nite n get high or dance.. not being able to join the very last part of the games.. it was all just a very small sacrifice tt i had to made. so ya it was ok la. n im realli v v sorry to wm for walkin off to join my og. din noe tt he needed me at tt time =( hai. there was so much i was thinkin tt nite. abt expectations n disappointments.. abt sacrifices.. abt our problems.. n blah.
anw i was damn happy to see loga, yewmun linghui n a few other cdss ppl frm yunnan trip. wahh i was super super happy la. realli miss them like siao. ive been missing yunnan so so much during this camp la. when singing pengyou reminded me of sizhong n the bus trips. singing the song tonight reminded me of the final debrief there n ziliang.
din slp much tt nite. was doin og presents stuff. haha. me nadia florence zhiwen xunkai n our facilitator wenhan. hahaha we had a realli good time la. laughing like crazy talkin abt the amusin stuff abt our campers.. n xunkai's jokes. it was the first n last time i saw wenhan laughing. n tt realli left an impact on me. cos usualli he wld be just around.. not joining us.. n just observing. summore he got tt super serious look. ya haha n i actualli saw him laughing.. n laughed wif him. tsk tsk he kept laughing esp at xunkai's jokes la. shldnt say wad kind of jokes they were. so ya it was a v memorable nite la. wm asked me to go star gazing. but rarr he fell aslp. hahaha.
camp day 3:
din get to do morning wake up call again cos everyone was awake again. e-web. i was facilitating it. startin the sharing session realli wasnt easy. hafta get the mood n tone n atmosphere n everything right la. i cant rmb wad i was sayin la but i thought it wasnt reali good. haha. was rather nervous. summore there were some rather sudden n loud distractions by another ogl from dunno where. but she was just tryin to help la. askin if our aircon was on. ya. anw it went on quite well. n i thought the ending was good. ya i ended it off quite nicely =D den some of them added summore stuff.. den we sang together. yupp. i think the ogls n wenhan agree tt this eweb was rather different. cos the mood was different. usualli quite solemn de. den ours.. haha cos we got a lot of jokers mah. den the stuff they do realli v amusing n cute.. but v sweet oso la. so sometimes will laugh when someone mentions some stuff during eweb. so the atmosphere was lighter la. but still it was v successful la.
song singing was ok too. i was cryin again as mr leow was talkin. esp abt the councillors la. dunno y but i just felt so much for them. thank you all councillors. theres so much i wanna say to u ppl but i dunno how to. anw aft tt got to thank someone tt i realli shd haf. dun think it was even well-received or even received at all.. but ya it certainly made me feel better.
aft everything n aft campers were dismissed.. we still sat in an og.. den the campers passed around the cards we gave them for everyone to write sth for them. but i was feelin realli terrible at tt time. dunno y my mood totalli went down. the same stuff i was cryin abt hit me again. i even went to the toilet to cry for a while b4 goin back to join my og. n it was super super tough to still be forcing myself to smile. but ya at least i think some of them cldnt tell tt i just cried. haha.
aft my og kinda left n aft keepin the drums n cymbals i was plannin to go home myself alr b4 goin to see optician. den went i was walkin along the corridor.. yiyan came running n said my og was waitin for me to go for lunch. like woh i was v touched once again.. n made me feel a lot better. haa even though there were onli 7 campers, 4 ogls n 1 facilitator n we onli went kopitiam to eat, i thought it was realli nice already.
so yupp tts the end of camp. i realli super love my campers la. haha ya shd stop callin them campers. ya my juniors. it was damn nice to see them opening up.. getting high.. enjoying themselves. their smiles reali melt my heart. n my og is v cool. so many ppl of different nationalities. 4 from india, 3 from china, 1 from taiwan, 1 from hongkong, 1 from myanmar, 1 from usa, 1 from germany.. n a few from malaysia. haa cool rite.
anw this camp realli rocked la. i noe ya sad to say tt it cld haf been better.. considering itz orientation 1 n itz the last camp we're having n running.. n expectations we had to live up to were v high.. but i guess we can onli learn frm our mistakes now n keep the wonderful memories n continue to keep in touch wif our juniors. yupp.
thank you og29: yadanar, feng lan, jessica, cheryl, nayana, serene, nadya, shi sang, rubini, yee le, andril, bestia, yen zhen, qiao yi, jerald, ganesh, ethan, ronald, sun bo, yeow chong, ming da, udit, vimallan, shaun n mau cheung.. n the ogls of og 29: xunkai florence zhiwen n nadia.. n our facilitator wen han! yayy thanks ppl. n uh not forgettin our f6 family head n asst family head syafiq n juncheng.. n all the other ogls n teachers! =D
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